a kid again

woke up today and i just wanted to be a kid again. i wanted to skip instead of walk. i wanted to go to the beach and collect sea shells or perhaps go to a book store and start collecting sweet smelling stationery with cute colored cartoons on it. i wanna play "hopscotch" or "mother may i?" like i always do when i was younger. i badly miss the cotton candy outside of school when i was in elementary. and yes i'm planning on doing some of the things that i usually do when life was still as easy as 1-2-3. like eating ice cream before my meal. screaming at the top of my lungs. watching cartoons at 11pm when there's no class on the next day. play millionaires game like crazy. sleep with a stuff toy beside me (my blue dolphin will do...lol). i wanna read jughead's comic books all over again. i wanna draw/sketch garfield in an entire notebook and color it with colours that you coudn't have imagine. cut out paper dolls and make cute dresses for her. a lot of things that i wanna do, so let me start this by eating a strawberry flavoured lollipop and embracing this child in me. *wink (check my old school pic...hehe)

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did you know???

did you know that her favorite color is black but still she's terrified of the dark? that when she's alone she can't sleep with the lights off, or every time she thinks of you she smiles? did you know that she hates arguing because she's never really good at it and that she hates to go a day without talking to you? did you know that she's also a movie freak? that she had watched almost all of the movies that you have seen? problem is, she usually forgets the title and the name of the actors on it. did you know that she loves listening to Korn as much as she loves Ne-yo? and did you know that for every time she was on the dance floor and she's partying all night, that's because she was hurting? did you know that she's not good with names and that she doesn't have a sense of direction? that sometimes she gets confused where's left and where's right? did you know that she love candies? that she goes gaga over gummy bears and gummy worms? did you know that on her next life she wanted to be a pirate? and did you know that she's learning how to play poker? only because she's not good at it and she thinks that you are? did you know that she can always sense if you're mad at her? or did you know that for every time you're wearing a gloomy face she would always wonder what's bugging you and she's hoping that you would tell her? did you know that she hates it that people can say one thing but feel a totally different way? and did you ever take the time to realize that you're her everything?

Now who is 'SHE'? and who are 'YOU'? did you ever wonder?

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found it and love it

She said that she wanted to get high.
He took her to the tallest hill in town.
She said that she wanted to stay up all night and drink.
He gave her a 12 pack of caffeinated Pepsi and said, "Drink up."
She said that she wanted to shoot herself in the face.
He gave her a water gun, put her finger on the trigger,
aimed it at her face, and helped her pull the trigger.
She said that she wanted to cut herself.
He took a Polaroid of her, handed it to her along with scissors, and had her cut it up.
She said that she wanted to see her blood.
He took her to get her ears pierced.
She said that she wanted to cry herself to sleep.
He had her watch a sad, romantic movie before bed.
She said that she wanted to be alone.
He gave her a name tag that said "My Name Is: Alone."
She said that she wanted to have someone there to take care of her, always.
He asked when he wasn't.

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these and those

i'm sorry if i don't have an exact explanation for these feelings, all i know is that these are real. i have been searching for the exact reason why i love you and i've actually come up with a list (i even have this list from my previous post about things that i love about you). but then i realized that even with all of these lists (another one below), it is still not enough. those lists still doesn't do any justice to what i've felt. there is still this unknown reason that i cannot explain why i love you this much.

- i love you because you are YOU. an epitome of a real person.
- i love you because you are the only person that i have known to accept failure as if you are winning.
- i love you not only because you are a good person but also because i know that you can be bad but you know how to admit your mistakes and you learn from them.
- i know i love you because every time that you are hurting, it hurts me more to see that you are in pain.
- i have this "i-don't-wanna-grow-old" feeling but you gave me the reason to love the fact that people grow old because i wanna be the one who's going to be right next to you when our hair turns grey and we have wrinkles all over our faces
- you tend to be forgetful sometimes, you snore when you sleep, you are so 'makulit', you are not good with numbers, you seldom smile, you tend to ignore me at times but then again you care like no other, your smile brightens my day, the look on your face always makes me wanna protect you from i don't know what/who...may be from someone who's going to hurt you or may be even from myself, your laughter and giggles never fail to make me happy...and i love you for all of these and more.

and going back to what we've had... this i'm sure, i was at my happiest when i was with you and i could never thank you enough for those mem'ries.

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saturday and just got paid whoah!

it's a saturday! no work for me today which means that there's no irate and dumb callers and i am so in the mood for slacking off but i have a lot of things to do not only today but 'til tomorrow.

here are my "updated" list of things to do before monday:

1. get the perfect substrate that i'm gonna be needing for my new baby's home - done
2. prepare the 'crib' for my new baby - done
3. get a pedicure - done
4. i bought 2 new dresses and i have to take them to the seamstress for a little adjustment - done
5. need to go to ayala today at 1pm to meet bro2x and get my new pet tarantula - done
6. buy tools (tweezers, nail cutter, paint brush) - done
7. get a full body massage later tonight - done

8. there's a scheduled night out with friends @11pm (still not quite sure if i would go as i would really love to take a beauty rest but at the same time i don't want to miss the party) - i didn't go, took some rest instead

9. need to finish watching the movies that i have started watching last week
10. download songs of Macy Gray
11. download gridiron gang movie - done
12. go to the grocery - done
13. write a post about my new baby
14. cook shrimp paste with pork for tomorrow
15 . change my blog's skin
16. join CAS - done
17. go to Crocolandia tomorrow for CAS's exhibit - i didn't go but bro2x said that there's a next time and promised that he will keep me posted

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