this is not my story...or so i hoped!

she is a girl who's in love with 'him' for quite some time now. she's madly in love with him, he can't define what he feels for her. she is pessimistic, he is realistic and discreet. she hated unrequited love, but she's swimming to its pool right now. she's enjoying her freedom, he despises commitments. she knew he's waiting for someone not her but she doesn't mind. he said he's keeping his options open. she wanted to be near him at times but she'd rather be contented watching him from afar. she's been trying to move on but she kept on failing after every attempts.

Everytime she sees him, she wish she could run into him and hug him tight and kiss him so sweetly but she doesn't want him to think that she desperately want to be a part of his life because she knew that he's not ready for it (or will he ever be?). she asked for permission if she could wait for him, he told her not to but she's stubborn and opted to wait anyway. she's afraid she might push him away but thinks that she's already doing it. she's too afraid that the story would just end before it could actually begins. how she wish she could show to him how much she loves him and how much she cares for him. how she long to whisper 'i love you' to his ears but she's afraid of the rejection that she might see in his eyes for it is going to struck her like lightning but she's hoping that one day she could say it anyway. she doesn't want him to think that he's hurting her, she doesn't want him to think that it's his fault because it is going to hurt her more. she believed in fairy tales, he doesn't believe in happy endings and ever after. what's in store for them? if i am going to put an end to this story, in a pessimist's view the ending is going to be tragically beautiful. Again, this is not my story...or so i hoped!