just a thought...

It's an enigma when you fall in love and accept that some good things never last and some don't even start. Suddenly, you'll begin to see yourself as nothing. It's an agony to accept that despite the feelings you have, it's all not enough. But when you love someone, you would do the hardest thing. And yes, it's not going to be easy, but at least you know that what you felt was real.

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some sunshine

the 'him' that i'm referring to from my previous post (this is not my story...or so i hoped!) once told me that there's really not much sunshine on this blog...well i told him it is because of my theme (life suckz*) but to hell with my theme, today i've decided to put some sunshine on this blog. i've been so happy this past few days (i still am up to this very moment) and here are the reasons why... i've received some text messages from long lost friends and from my best friend JC who's currently in Manila and he said that he's coming home for christmas which is really great. plus jollibee's mushroom and cheese burger is now back and this time it's with crispy bacon on it. i've also been enjoying my sweet freedom for a couple of months now which is awesome because i can do whatever it is that i wanted to do without any questions and objections from anyone and i intend to keep it this way for the next 2 to 3 years (lol). and lastly i've spent some time with 'him' and that made me very happy, i just dont know if he's happy with it. i'm kinda afraid to ask him though for he might answer 'NO' and i'll be force to stop but anyways im happy, so happy that if ever you'll get to see me these days you will be able to see the unquestionable smile on my face. (hehehe)

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this is not my story...or so i hoped!

she is a girl who's in love with 'him' for quite some time now. she's madly in love with him, he can't define what he feels for her. she is pessimistic, he is realistic and discreet. she hated unrequited love, but she's swimming to its pool right now. she's enjoying her freedom, he despises commitments. she knew he's waiting for someone not her but she doesn't mind. he said he's keeping his options open. she wanted to be near him at times but she'd rather be contented watching him from afar. she's been trying to move on but she kept on failing after every attempts.

Everytime she sees him, she wish she could run into him and hug him tight and kiss him so sweetly but she doesn't want him to think that she desperately want to be a part of his life because she knew that he's not ready for it (or will he ever be?). she asked for permission if she could wait for him, he told her not to but she's stubborn and opted to wait anyway. she's afraid she might push him away but thinks that she's already doing it. she's too afraid that the story would just end before it could actually begins. how she wish she could show to him how much she loves him and how much she cares for him. how she long to whisper 'i love you' to his ears but she's afraid of the rejection that she might see in his eyes for it is going to struck her like lightning but she's hoping that one day she could say it anyway. she doesn't want him to think that he's hurting her, she doesn't want him to think that it's his fault because it is going to hurt her more. she believed in fairy tales, he doesn't believe in happy endings and ever after. what's in store for them? if i am going to put an end to this story, in a pessimist's view the ending is going to be tragically beautiful. Again, this is not my story...or so i hoped!

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instant coffee, instant noodles, instant bestfriend???

"when the going gets tough, i'll light some cigarettes and will just puff my troubles away." part of this line is actually borrowed from my Instant Bestfriend. yeah, you've read it right. so much like an instant coffee, instant noodles and instant internet connection. (giggle)

instant because we barely knew each other but i know i can trust him and i bet he feels the same for me too (that's what i think). he was there for me when i really need some nicotine on my lungs and smoke on my system just so i could ease my trouble mind. when my tears were about to fall he was there to stop it from falling and he has this crazy way of stopping it. he told me that if ever he's going to see a single tear run down my face he will surely lick my tear away. (lol) he can also tell if i'm just faking my smile (i usually fake a smile so people would think that i'm happy).

to my instant best friend you know who you are, you surely deserve some space on this blog and though our life is like a circus (and it's cicle) at least we're enjoying the ride!!! (tagay)

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a tribute to my fave duo

my sister and i went to warren's dvd shop last friday and i was kinda amazed by what i've found out during my trip to the cartoon section. Oh good lord! i must have been watching cartoons all my life because i've already seen almost all of the cartoon dvd's available on the stand. well, i love watching cartoons even until now, it makes me forget about everything. as i was browsing i've noticed this old school beavis and butt-head CD sitting on a stand right next to some oldies cartoons. i suddenly remember high school days, drinking coke, eating chiz curls and watching beavis and butt-head while lying in bed.

something about beavis and butt-head from wiki:

Beavis and Butt-head is an American animated television series created by Mike Judge. After the success of Judge's short film entitled Frog Baseball, which starred the characters Beavis and Butt-head and was featured in an episode of Liquid Television, the cable television channel MTV signed Judge to create a series with the same characters. The series aired from March 8, 1993 to November 28, 1997. It is rated TV-14 in the United States. Reruns of the series are currently airing on MTV2, and occasionally on Comedy Central.

In 1996, the series was spun off into an animated feature film, Beavis and Butt-Head Do America.

The show centers on a pair of teenagers, Beavis and Butt-head, who live in the fictional town of Highland. They while away their time in sarcastic conversation, fantasizing about sex and masculinity, although they have no real-world experience with either thing. They attend Highland High (based on a real high school in Albuquerque, New Mexico, where Judge grew up) and occasionally work at part-time jobs, putting as little effort as possible into everything they do. They survive their misadventures without serious consequences, and with a generally contented, though critical (not apathetic) worldview. During each episode, Beavis and Butt-head watch and make fun of two or three music videos.

about beavis:
Has an underbite and a fixated stare on his face, which is almost always shown in profile. Beavis grunts when he laughs, has a grainy, gutteral voice and has a penchant for picking his nose. The more excitable of the two, he is oblivious to the obvious and slightly nicer overall than Butt-head. He is often abused physically, either by Butt-head or various other characters whom he infuriates. He usually takes every beating and screams in pain before quickly reverting back to his trademark laugh. Before controversy erupted (see below) he exhibited an obsession with fire, as well as other psychotic tendencies (one episode showed that he has voices in his head telling him to engage in destructive activities); however, generally he has a passive demeanor in contrast to Butt-head's dominant personality. Beavis also has an alter ego named The Great Cornholio, who usually surfaces after he consumes large quantities of caffeine and/or sugar. Beavis was named after Bobby Beavis, a boy who lived in the same neighborhood as Mike Judge during Judge's time in college. Judge states, however, that it was only the name that he gave to Beavis, and that Bobby was nothing like Beavis at all.

about butt-head:
Wears dental braces and has squinty eyes and a drooping nose with prominent nostrils. His top gums are often exposed due to a small upper lip, and he speaks nasally with a deep voice and a slight lisp. He begins almost every statement with "Uhhhhhh..." and ends with a short laugh. Calmer, and cockier. Butt-head is oblivious to subtleties, but is usually 100% confident in everything he says and does, no matter how ridiculous or frivolous it is. The designated "leader" of the duo, he derives pleasure from being regularly abusive to Beavis. Mike Judge got the idea for the name Butt-head from two people he knew during his childhood called "Iron Butt" (who would encourage people to kick him in the butt to demonstrate his strength) and "Butt-head".

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