2008

2008 - it felt like I've been through a hurricane this year and surprisingly i came out of it alive. i can no longer even recall how I've managed to stay alive and what motivates me to still hold on to the rope when my hands kept on slipping.

January - my first new year away from home and away from my family, quite sad but i'm with friends and we're definitely on the same boat. enjoyed watching fireworks display near it park in lahug.

February - received a dozen red roses which i don't need and chocolates too. been on a very complicated situation.

March - been receiving threats. been struggling to get out of the mess i've made.

April - stayed focus and reminded myself that the decisions I've made were the best, so i do not have to worry about anything else. met new interesting wacky people, said goodbye to some. found out that my ex-boyfriend who's close to my family just got a girl pregnant and he was force to marry her.


May - team building @ badian. enjoyed the summer heat. company summer outing, night out with my best buddies, and of course my birthday. shared a chocolate cake with the team since i was on duty. received a call from JC asking me to forget about the guy i've been eyeing. i didn't listen.

June - finally realized how in love i am to this guy who is beyond my reach. I've got the courage and told him about it. same month when i was rejected by the same guy. rejection hurts like hell. got so drunk in a bar with ladin, met a cool guy (5 feet, 9 inches tall, chinito, good family background, cute) who lent me his hanky while I've ejected all of the contents of my stomach through my mouth.

July - tried so hard to move on, entertained a suitor (the guy who lent me his hanky), party like hell.

August - got my new baby... a yin yang tattoo on my upper back. still partying like hell, experienced a riot with empty beer bottles flying through the air during one night out. rejected the guy who lent me his hanky. i don't wanna use him to move on because I'm still in love with the guy who rejected me.

September - family problems involving my sister.

October - been haunted by my past. cried a river and realized that it is not necessary to explain myself to other people because the person who likes me doesn't need it and the person who dislikes me wont believe it.

November - haven't move on a bit though i was told to do so. entertained some more suitors. party some more. been dancing like no one's watching.

December - complained about the w/tax that has been deducted to my 13-month pay. turn out it was due to the bonuses i've received through out the year. got someone to finally fix my eyebrows. bought a little black dress and heels for our company's red carpet theme xmas party. received an award from our company for being a tough agent (lol). bought a nice little dress from ukay2x (so so love it). i finally got to wear the tube dress that i bought last year. got a working pc at home with internet. finally gave up on entertaining suitors. still haven't move on, even a bit. still, so in love to this guy who makes fun of me whenever i get startled by something...

i've been a friend to those in need. gave advises when needed. a bitch to some. a woman who needs protection at times. a lady who's not afraid to be alone. a funny girl to many. to sum it up, it's indeed a very challenging year. just another year which proves that my life still suckz but it ain't that boring that i get to enjoy every minute of it.

au revoir 2008, hello 2009.

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all i want for christmas

christmas, oh WTF! it is supposed to be my most favorite time of the year but not this year i guess. im f*cked up, so f*cked up that i just wanna skip the holiday season...just wanna sleep and hopefully wake up the next month. this time it really sucks and i hate it!

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you may call me weird

my title says it all...i'm weird (read as: not normal...lol). try to imagine this: i've watched harold and kumar escape from guantanamo bay about a couple of months ago and believe it or not, i've cried. like totally cried, specially when Kumar recited the poem by David Feinberg near the end of the movie.

i actually don't mind being weird because being normal isn't half as fun as not being normal. i just love the way i am!

square root of three

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

-David Feinberg

a little something from wiki:
Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay is the 2008 comedy film sequel to the 2004 film, Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle. John Cho and Kal Penn reprise their roles as the eponymous stoner duo, along with Paula Garcés as Harold's love interest, Maria.^[2] Neil Patrick Harris also returns as a satirical version of himself.

Plot

Immediately following the events of the first film, Harold Lee and Kumar Patel fly to Amsterdam so Harold can pursue a budding romance with his neighbor. At the beginning of the movie, it shows Harold packing for the trip while Kumar is masturbating. They arrive at the airport and Kumar creates trouble while going through security in order to get weed on the plane. The pair run into Vanessa, Kumar's ex-girlfriend, and her fiancée Colton, at the airport. Harold and Kumar board the plane, and mid-flight, an old woman sees Kumar lighting his new invention, a smokeless bong. She mistakes it for a bomb, and screams "terrorist!" Air marshals immediately detain both, and the plane returns to Washington, where Ron Fox, a neurotic undersecretary of Homeland Security, sends them to the Guantanamo Bay detention camp. They escape, and decide to travel to Texas in search of Colton, with hopes that he will be able to help them through his father, who is connected with several high political officials.

The film follows the same path as its predecessor, putting Harold and Kumar in a series of quirky vignettes, usually centered around themes of drugs, sex, and racism. Neil Patrick Harris returns as his drug-addled, womanizing parody of himself.

After being betrayed by Colton and jumping out of a plane, the pair falls through the ceiling of President George W. Bush's home in Texas, where the President is hiding from Dick Cheney. After bonding over marijuana, the President pardons the pair and sends the Secret Service to help them. Harold and Kumar arrive at the wedding just in time to stop it, revealing Colton's true nature. Enraged, Colton attacks Kumar, but Harold levels him. Vanessa is angry at Kumar for embarrassing her at the wedding, but forgives him when he recites the poem that he had been writing on the day they met, but was too embarrassed to share with her until now. The three leave the wedding, heading to Amsterdam, where Harold finds Maria. The movie ends with everyone enjoying the city and its offerings.

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the road to happiness is no longer under repair

i don't know why I'm acting kinda strange these days... i just woke up one day and there's already this new found hope in me. i thought i belong to those pessimistic people who would rather think of negative thoughts than pretend that hope still exist. But i guess not today, i felt different today. It feels like I've been abducted for 2 days by some people who has been working for a secret agency then i was brought to a laboratory where they have studied my brain and i have been injected with something that causes me to wake up one morning with hope in me (this is a sign that I've been watching too much fictional series at home...hehehe). though i already got this new-found-hope kind of thing going on in me I'm still quite confuse. still have a lot of questions left unanswered, so many that i promise to blog about it one of these days. Am i just too dumb to figure things out on my own? or am i doing this on purpose? trying so hard not to figure things out so i will remain impregnable because the truth hurts and it sucks and there are already a lot of fucking things going on around me and may be i can no longer afford to take another non-sense bullshit. i don't know...really don't know.

you might be wondering why the road to happiness is no longer under repair. well, that's because people from DPWH (Department of Public Works and Highways) are done with their job. *wink* it simply means that i chose to be happy, 'cause i believe that i deserved to be...i just stop thinking about what will happen next, as long as i love him and I'm loving him right then that's something to be happy about. currently enjoying the joy ride...lol

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The Boyfriend Every Girl Wants

got this post from this link.
just wanna share...


The boyfriend every girl wants,
Read till the end!

When she repos​t this bulletin - [she wants​ you to read it]
When she walks​ away from you mad - [Follow​ her]
When she stare​'​​​s at your mouth​ - [Kiss her]
When she pushes you or hit'​​​s you - [Grab her and don't​ let go]
When she start​'​​​s cursing at you - [Kiss her]
When she ignores​ you - [Give her your awareness]​​​
When she pulls​ away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst​ - [Tell her she'​​​s gorgeous]
When you see her start​ weeping - [​​​Just hold her and don't​ say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak​ up and hug her waist​ from behind]
When she'​​​s scare​d - [Protect her]
When she lay'​​​s her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steal​'​​​s your favor​ite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep​ with it for a night​]​​​
When she tease​'​​​s you - [Tease​ her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn't​ answer​ for a long time - [reassure her that everything​ is okay]
When she looks​ at you with doubt​ - [Back yours​elf up with the TRUTH​]​​​
When she grab'​​​s at your hands​ - [Hold her'​​​s and play with her fingers]
When she bump'​​​s into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells​ you a secret​ - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks​ at you in your eyes - [don't​ look away until​ she does]

- Stay on the phone​ with her even if she's​ not saying​ anything​
-​​​DON'​​​T let her have the last word
-​​​DON'​​​T call her hot, But elegant ​ or attractive is so much better
-DON'T CALL OTHER GIRLS HOT

- Argue​ that she is the best girl ever
- When she'​​​s mad hug her tight​ and don'​​​t let go
- When she says she'​​​s ok don't​ believe it, talk with her
- because 10 years later​ she'll remember you


- Treat​ her like she'​​​s all that matters to you
- Tease​ her and let her tease​ you back
- Watch​ her favorite movie​ with her or her favorite show even if you think​ its stupid
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she'​​​s bored​ and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she'​​​s important
- Kiss her in the pouring​ rain

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i already know

I already know you've been playing me cheating on the low but my heart can't take it anymore. It's been hurting me but I won't let it show...I already know!!!

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