the road to happiness is no longer under repair

i don't know why I'm acting kinda strange these days... i just woke up one day and there's already this new found hope in me. i thought i belong to those pessimistic people who would rather think of negative thoughts than pretend that hope still exist. But i guess not today, i felt different today. It feels like I've been abducted for 2 days by some people who has been working for a secret agency then i was brought to a laboratory where they have studied my brain and i have been injected with something that causes me to wake up one morning with hope in me (this is a sign that I've been watching too much fictional series at home...hehehe). though i already got this new-found-hope kind of thing going on in me I'm still quite confuse. still have a lot of questions left unanswered, so many that i promise to blog about it one of these days. Am i just too dumb to figure things out on my own? or am i doing this on purpose? trying so hard not to figure things out so i will remain impregnable because the truth hurts and it sucks and there are already a lot of fucking things going on around me and may be i can no longer afford to take another non-sense bullshit. i don't know...really don't know.

you might be wondering why the road to happiness is no longer under repair. well, that's because people from DPWH (Department of Public Works and Highways) are done with their job. *wink* it simply means that i chose to be happy, 'cause i believe that i deserved to be...i just stop thinking about what will happen next, as long as i love him and I'm loving him right then that's something to be happy about. currently enjoying the joy ride...lol

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The Boyfriend Every Girl Wants

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The boyfriend every girl wants,
Read till the end!

When she repos​t this bulletin - [she wants​ you to read it]
When she walks​ away from you mad - [Follow​ her]
When she stare​'​​​s at your mouth​ - [Kiss her]
When she pushes you or hit'​​​s you - [Grab her and don't​ let go]
When she start​'​​​s cursing at you - [Kiss her]
When she ignores​ you - [Give her your awareness]​​​
When she pulls​ away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst​ - [Tell her she'​​​s gorgeous]
When you see her start​ weeping - [​​​Just hold her and don't​ say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak​ up and hug her waist​ from behind]
When she'​​​s scare​d - [Protect her]
When she lay'​​​s her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steal​'​​​s your favor​ite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep​ with it for a night​]​​​
When she tease​'​​​s you - [Tease​ her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn't​ answer​ for a long time - [reassure her that everything​ is okay]
When she looks​ at you with doubt​ - [Back yours​elf up with the TRUTH​]​​​
When she grab'​​​s at your hands​ - [Hold her'​​​s and play with her fingers]
When she bump'​​​s into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells​ you a secret​ - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks​ at you in your eyes - [don't​ look away until​ she does]

- Stay on the phone​ with her even if she's​ not saying​ anything​
-​​​DON'​​​T let her have the last word
-​​​DON'​​​T call her hot, But elegant ​ or attractive is so much better
-DON'T CALL OTHER GIRLS HOT

- Argue​ that she is the best girl ever
- When she'​​​s mad hug her tight​ and don'​​​t let go
- When she says she'​​​s ok don't​ believe it, talk with her
- because 10 years later​ she'll remember you


- Treat​ her like she'​​​s all that matters to you
- Tease​ her and let her tease​ you back
- Watch​ her favorite movie​ with her or her favorite show even if you think​ its stupid
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she'​​​s bored​ and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she'​​​s important
- Kiss her in the pouring​ rain

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i already know

I already know you've been playing me cheating on the low but my heart can't take it anymore. It's been hurting me but I won't let it show...I already know!!!

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hoping that santa is a blogger too

dear santa,

when i was a child i would always hang my socks on the stairs of my lolo and lola's house during christmas eve, hoping to see lots of chocolates the next day i woke up. also days before christmas my mama would always asked us to write letters for our wishes and it has been addressed to you, i just don't know if it has really been sent. it has always been like that and i have always believed that it was you, until i caught the culprits. it was my lola and my mama...how sweet of them to do that. my lola already passed away 8 years ago. i've stopped hanging socks and at some point in my life i've stopped believing in you.

i am now 24, i've graduated from college, got a job, been through a lot of failed relationships and here i am writing this letter to you. i would love to believe that i can still be a child again and i can still write you a letter of my wishes for this christmas. but this time i will no longer ask for a barbie doll or a life size doll that can dance. though my wishes are no longer that simple, im still hoping you'll give it a chance (this is me being optimistic).

below are the list of my wishes for this christmas:
-i wish for you to take out the gland on my eyes that releases water (i don't know what it's called and wasn't able to google it)... though crying can be a relief at times but i've already grown tired of it

-don't know if this is possible but i would love to have a heart of steel. one which can no longer feel anything.

-i wanted to die when i reach 35, growing old is just not for me, so so not for me and i still don't have the reason why i should grow that old

if the above wishes are not valid then how bout a man instead, who will accept and love me for who i am. someone who's brave enough to love me and will take care of me...naahhhh sound so boring...hehehe...

i was just kidding, candies and chocolates will still do but it would also be nice if it is with an Aston Martin Vanquish...lol.

kinda naughty but still nice,
maeyang


im hoping that santa is also into blogging and hopefully would happen to stumble upon this post.

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per request

this is a text message from warren. warren by the way is my soon to be brother-in-law and
the soon to be daddy of my younger sister's baby.

here's the text message i received from him last October 19, 2008 at exactly 2:35 in the afternoon.

"the best part of being in love is when you just love a person and be happy about it, even if that person can never be yours, even if you know that it can't last forever! that's the true essence of love. it's not about winning someone. it's not about owning a relationship. it's just about being happy coz you know you've loved someone. it's about being guiltless coz you know you didn't take away someone from anybody. you just love and love unselfishly".

yeah, i know it's shitty, but damn...it's worth it!

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chasing amy

I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.

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